We'll be brothers again in our next life!!
Why does my marriage always end in failure?
It's been over 20 years, and almost everyday I am experiencing the pain of not being with you.
If one day, we could no longer find each other,
then let's come here to meet.
He hides his emotions. When he works, he is very organized.
My first impression was not wrong.
Song Jie has pushed me to the very edge.
We can't be together in this life, but I will look forward to the next life.
I hope that we will really last forever.
I know in this lifetime you have only Zhang Hao Tian in your heart.
I don't love you. That's the only reason.
I have always hoped that I could hold you like this one day.
Timing and Subtitles by The Ladder Of Love Team@Viki
The Ladder of Love
Episode 61
Hello, Miss. You shirt-
Sister. Sister!
Sister! Sister! Is it really you?
You're really still alive!
Sister, do you know how much Mum and I cried for you?
We were both hoping that a miracle would happen everyday, we hoped you would still be alive.
we hoped you would still be alive.
Why did you lie to us? Why?
I...I...
Could it be...
Could it be because you wanted Hao Tian to forget you and be with me?
Could it be because so he wouldn't be emotionally prepared that you faked your death?
Tian Xin, listen to me.
I don't want to listen!
Do you know that you would only make things more complicated by doing that?
I feel like I'm an idiot.
I feel like the love between Hao Tian and I is especially cheap.
Do you know? Love is not a sacrifice, it is neither a fulfilment!
Tian Xin...Tian Xin! Tian Xin.
I knew Sister was still alive in this world,
I still cruelly stole the person she loved. Then what kind of person am I?
If Hao Tian knew Sister didn't die,
he would definitely think that I am lying to him on purpose.
Then how should I face Hao Tian?
What to do? What should I do?
Why does God have to steal away my happiness when I'm so close to it?
This red pocket is for your Aunt An Ni.
Okay.
Also Xiao Hua Tong.
Tian Xin?
Hello? Tian Xin, why aren't you speaking?
I don't want to get married anymore.
What? Why don't you want to get married anymore?
What really happened? Tell me.
Tian Xin. Hello?
Hao Tian, what's wrong? Why did Tian Xin suddenly say she doesn't want to get married?
I also don't know what happened, she's not saying why.
I'll go ask her.
Auntie, has Tian Xin not returned yet?
We're getting married tomorrow, where has she gone?
She has suddenly disappeared at this moment.
Okay, then I'll keep looking. Okay.
Tian Xin.
Tian Xin, what happened to you?
Hao Tian has called several times to find you.
Did you two argue?
Tian Xin, what's wrong?
Mum, I saw Sister.
She is still alive.
How could that be possible? How could you have seen Qiu Yan?
I went to the shopping centre to pick a shirt for Hao Tian and I saw Sister.
This Qiu Yan, how careless of her.
What did you say? What careless?
Mum, you knew already, didn't you?
Tian Xin, listen to mum's explanation.
Mum, what are you thinking?
Tian Xin, I also only knew Qiu Yan was still alive recently.
Qiu Yan was afraid that she wouldn't survive this coming surgery,
she was afraid that we would be too...too upset,
that's why she made up this lie,
so that we would give up entirely and help you and Hao Tian get together.
I don't need this kind of help!
How could I watch her break apart her fate to help me?
Why didn't you tell me earlier?
Why did you make me into a person who is sorry to Sister?
I thought I was really going to be blessed with happiness.
Why do you make me suffer so much? Why?
Tian Xin, this was all Qiu Yan's plan. She hoped to see you happy.
I was originally really happy.
The happiness has been destroyed now.
Sister is still alive, if I still take away Hao Tian, then I am an immoral person.
If Hao Tian knew Sister is still alive,
then he would think I was lying to him.
I've become another hurtful person again.
Both of you are my darlings.
It's torture to see either of you suffer.
But if there's a better solution,
I would be willing to do it without another thought.
But perhaps this is god's plans.
Qiu Yan just didn't want to see you upset,
that's why she was determined to give up on Hao Tian.
You should be able to clearly understand the most.
Sister gave her love to me. She's a saint, then what about me?
Do I have to live my whole life as a criminal who stole my brother-in-law?
Aren't you all too selfish for doing this?
Tian Xin! Tian Xin!
Timing and Subtitles by The Ladder Of Love Team@Viki
Qiu Yan! It's really you.
You're still alive. I'm not dreaming, right?
You really didn't die.
I'm sorry, you got the wrong person.
Don't lie to me!
How could I have gotten the wrong person?
It's you, you're still alive!
Do you know?
Do you know how pained and hopeless I was during the time you were away?!
I'm sorry, I really am not the Chen Qiu Yan you're looking for.
Chen Qiu Yan!
Qiu Yan.
The first photo you were looking at,
was taken by my on 12th of November.
At that time, you were working and got tired then fell asleep.
I sent that photo to you so that you could see how cute you are.
Until now, I still have that photo saved on my phone.
And the second photo, I saw in your friend group.
From those few days on, every night,
I could only fall asleep when I look at you friend group.
You wrote on the friend group,
"1st of July, today's weather is so good.
"I want to go out for some sunshine."
The third photo was sent by you on the 16th of July.
On it said, "This necklace looks so pretty. I really like you."
So I went to every shopping centre before I bought that necklace.
Qiu Yan, the gods have finally let you return.
You've finally returned to my side.
No matter what happened, I won't look into it.
But why did you have to lie to me?
Why did you have to leave me?
Don't you know how pained I feel that way?
Hao Tian...
I shouldn't have come back.
I don't belong to this world anymore.
I shouldn't appear in your life again.
I'm begging you, forget me.
Impossible. How could I possibly forget you?
You're the most important person in my love.
Every frown or smile of yours, every move of yours are in my mind.
I can't ever let you leave again.
What about Tian Xin? Have you forgotten Tian Xin?
You're getting married to her tomorrow,
have you forgotten your promise to her?
Tian Xin, everything I say is true.
If you're willing.
You dare say something like that to me at this moment.
Why?
Why do the gods have to be like this?!
You're still not dead,
yet I have to marry Tian Xin.
Is this possibly...possibly fate's plan?!
We've had a three months' promise before.
I came as planned that day,
I waited here until the last moment. Why didn't you come?!
Could the feelings between us be just that?
Are you really willing to give up on it?!
Hao Tian, I've never lied to you, neither have I tricked you.
When the doctor announced that I've got blood cancer, I despaired.
Just thinking that you're about to marry somebody who's about to die, I was in great pain.
I didn't how I should face you, I didn't how I should face our future.
So I decided to run away.
I pushed you away. I wanted you to hate me, I wanted you to loathe me.
Because that way, you wouldn't suffer so much when I die!
I admit I am cowardly.
I naïvely thought that I could accept you being with another woman.
But whenever I see you with Tian Xin,
my heart bleeds.
But what can I do? Tian Xin is my biological little sister,
I need to be strong, I need to get through it.
So I made that lie, saying that I already died.
I wanted you to completely give up.
I just...I just wanted you to be together with Tian Xin.
So that I could also force myself to let go.
But I really didn't think...
I really don't know what I've done wrong,
for the gods to trick me like this.
After that fake death, my illness was miraculously controlled.
And me? I had to take all the consequences of that lie.
I suffered, I was uncertain. I couldn't convince myself.
I could convince myself that I don't love you, to not think about you.
I came for that three months' promise but I didn't see you!
Where were you?
Why...why is it like this?
The gods are torturing us.
What should we do?
Hao Tian,
this is our destiny.
The gods won't let us be be husband and wife.
I'm begging you, all the love you have for me,
redirect it all to Tian Xin.
Love her well and watch over her.
Qiu Yan, do you think love is something that is so easy?
I will say it again, the person I love the most in this lifetime is you.
How could I redirect it to someone else so nonchalantly?
I can't do it.
But everything between us has been predestined,
destined that two people, who love each other, can't be together.
Hao Tian, the wish that Sister never got to complete, let me complete it for her.
The love Sister has for you, let me continue it for her.
I will stay with you forever, please?
Tian Xin, don't be like this. Don't be like this.
Don't be like this.
Nobody will be willing to love me,
nobody will be willing to marry me either.
I'm willing.
Tian Xin,
I'm willing to marry you.
If you can't walk away from the dark times because of that,
if you feel unsafe because of that,
then I'm willing to stay with you.
From today on, I will protect you, giving you safety.
Zhang Hao Tian, are you pitying me?
I don't need your pity,
I don't want love gotten through begging!
- No! - I'm not pitying you.
Tian Xin, everything I say is true.
You're right, Qiu Yan is not here. Even if I love her any more,
I will still need to lock away my love for her. I can't hurt you because I miss her.
Tian Xin, if you're willing,
we can try to give each other a chance.
Hello, Miss. You shirt-
Sister. Sister!
Sister! Sister! Is it really you?
You're really still alive!
Sister, do you know how much Mum and I cried for you?
We were both hoping that a miracle would happen everyday, we hoped you would still be alive.
Why are you so cruel?
Why did you lie to us? Why?
I...I...
Could it be...could it be because you wanted Hao Tian to forget you and be with me?
Could it be because so he wouldn't be emotionally prepared that you faked your death?
Tian Xin.
Timing and Subtitles by The Ladder Of Love Team@Viki
You've come now.
Don't you have anything you want to say to me?
- Tian Xin. - Hao Tian, do you love me?
All the love you have for me, redirect it to Tian Xin.
Love her well and watch over her.
Qiu Yan, do you think love is something that is so easy?
How should I reply?
Tell her that Qiu Yan didn't die.
"The person I love is Qiu Yan, I only feel responsible for you."?
Zhang Hao Tian, you've hurt the woman you love and also the woman who loves you.
Tian Xin, don't think too much.
We're getting married tomorrow.
If you knew Sister didn't die, would you still marry me?
♫An old song about love♫
♫The melody is still not worn out♫
♫Both you and I are gently humming♫
♫Waiting for when we meet again♫
♫That's the decision of happiness♫
♫That's your gentleness♫
Today, I'm finally walking towards the steeple holding the man I love.
To be able to spend a lifetime with the person one loves
is such a happy thing.
I must firmly remember this moment,
forever, forever.
♫The love is still in my heart♫
♫As turbulent as the tide♫
♫When I miss you♫
♫I smile with tears♫
On this world, how many people could say that the people they married
is the person they love the most in their lifetime?
If not loving a person and not letting her feel you don't love her,
that's the biggest love for her.
Please sit down, guests. Thank you.
Mr Zhang Hao Tian, are you willing to take the woman before you as your wife,
to establish a marriage with her, whether sick or healthy,
or any other reason, that you would love her and take care of her,
respect her, accept her,
forever being loyal to her until life's end.
Are you willing?
- I... - I'm unwilling.
♫I really don't want you to cry. ♫
I'm sorry.
♫We've had too many misunderstandings. ♫
I have no way to lie to you anymore,
I also can't lie to myself anymore.
I want to tell you the truth.
Hao Tian, Sister isn't dead.
I saw her with my own eyes.
I know,
Sister only faked her death to fulfil us.
But I really can't convince myself to accept this marriage.
Hao Tian,
thank you,
to let me feel the glory of marrying you.
Thank you for everything you've given me.
♫But love is already too far away from me. ♫
♫I'll just accept all of this. ♫
♫I force myself to say goodbye, ♫
Don't lie to yourself anymore as well, I know the person you love isn't me.
The one you want to marry also isn't me.
You love her, then love her courageously.
Don't think about the consequences.
I hope that if we're both old one day,
when we've walked until the end of life,
I hope you could leave with a smile
and not tears.
♫Love will make people break each other's hearts. ♫
♫Why is it that only after breaking up, ♫
♫ do I feel the pain in my heart? ♫
♫These tears endlessly wet your face. ♫
♫ I force myself to say goodbye. ♫
♫But when the words are on the tip of my tongue,it makes you cry,♫
♫like your heart has been slowly ripped apart.♫
♫ Why is it that only after leaving you, ♫
♫do I want to return to the past? ♫
♫But love is already too far away from me. ♫
♫I'll just accept all of this. ♫
♫I force myself to say goodbye, ♫
Qiu Yan! Qiu Yan, hurry and pack up your stuff. We're leaving this place immediately.
Why? Didn't you go to attend Hao Tian and Tian Xin's wedding?
You're so panicked, what happened?
Tian Xin rejected getting married to Hao Tian at the venue,
she also told Hao Tian that you didn't die.
How could it be like this? How could it be like this?
- Qiu Yan. - Mum!
Mum, what happened to Tian Xin and Hao Tian?
Tian Xin...she left.
Left? Hao Tian didn't stop her?
It was my fault. It must be because I saw Hao Tian that day,
that's why it influenced his decision.
What did you say? You met with Hao Tian?
I...I went to the church yesterday afternoon,
I walked into Hao Tian accidentally.
This really was an accident.
You child, why didn't you tell me yesterday?
Does Tian Xin know?
I don't know. Hao Tian wouldn't have told me.
If it was me, I must have said, to save everyone from suffering.
Enough, Zi Yang. Stop.
I know this was caused by me.
What should I do, Mum?
Auntie An Ni.
It's really Qiu Yan.
- Qiu Yan! - Auntie An Ni, I...
You're still alive.
This is true? This isn't a joke?
This is too good. Come, come, come, let auntie take a look at you.
Auntie, I'm sorry.
I didn't want to influence Tian Xin and Hao Tian's wedding,
that's why I lied to you guys.
I'm sorry, I've made you all worry.
You silly, why are you still worried?
We've all understood your intentions.
But Zi Yang and Sister Li Na, how deceitful of you.
You've hid it from me for so long.
Are you all worried that I would spill all this?
I only wanted to go along with Qiu Yan's intentions, but I didn't think...
This is the meaning of destiny, there's no point in overthinking it.
What must happen will happen.
That's right, Tian Xin has already run away, this wedding is done.
There's no use in saying all these now.
We must think of a solution to find Tian Xin.
Qiu Yan, don't rush yet.
The doctor said that it's most important for you to be emotionally stable right now.
If that's not the case, then all of the previous treatment will be for nothing.
If you won't listen to the doctor, if the illness recurs...
the consequences are unthinkable.
Qiu Yan, don't rush.
Let's hurry and think to see what kind of places Tian Xin would go.
Don't be impatient.
Yes.
Timing and Subtitles by The Ladder Of Love Team@Viki
Brother, open the door. I'm Tian Xin.
I miss you so much.
I want to talk to you.
I don't know where I can go.
Brother, open the door.
Brother, what should I do?
I knew this would happen, but I still can't face it.
I've left so briskly.
But I only knew the moment I left,
that I couldn't face it.
Brother, what should I do?
Dad...I miss you so much.
Why are the gods so unfair?
Taking you away, taking away the man I love.
Now, even Brother is gone.
Tian Xin!
Brother?
Brother! Brother!
Brother, is it really you?
I'm not dreaming, right? You're really back?
Silly sister, I'm back.
What happened to you? Tell brother quickly, what happened?
Alright.
Alright, Tian Xin.
Tian Xin, seriously. Where did she go?
Does she not know we're worried about her?
I hope Tian Xin won't do anything dumb.
I don't want to listen!
Do you know that you would only make things more complicated by doing that?
feel like I'm an idiot.
I feel like the love between Hao Tian and I is especially cheap.
Do you know? Love is not a sacrifice, it is neither a fulfilment!
Tian Xin...Tian Xin!
Qiu Yan.
Mum, do you know?
When I left home,
I was thinking, would I not be able to return home in this lifetime.
Qiu Yan.
Hello? Hao Tian!
What? Tian Xin is still unfound?
Where did she go?
Hello? Hao Tian, I'm begging you,
you must think of a way to find Tian Xin.
If Tian Xin comes back, I will also tell you, okay?
Alright, Qiu Yan.
Mum, where did Tian Xin go?
It was my fault, it was my fault, it was my fault!
It was my fault for being to weak and powerless. If it weren't for me,
if it wasn't because I couldn't control myself,
I wouldn't have walked into Tian Xin.
Mum, I destroyed her lifetime of happiness.
Qiu Yan, don't be too upset.
Destiny was planned by the gods, nobody can change that.
Yes, yes, Qiu Yan. Don't ever be too upset.
If you're like this, mum feels so pained watching.
Mum, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry to Tian Xin, I'm sorry to everyone.
I really didn't think that...
I've worked so hard for so long,
thinking that everybody would be happy!
It was because of my weakness.
- It was my fault! It was my fault! It was my fault! - Qiu Yan, don't be like this!
I believe Tian Xin will understand.
Qiu Yan, you mustn't be like this.
Qiu Yan, you must be strong. Things are not as bad as you think.
- Okay, okay. - Your little sister is also an adult,
she has also experienced quite a lot of turbulence in relationships,
I believe she must be able to face it all with bravery,
to let everything have a happy ending.
It's Boss.
Boss, is it really you?
You've finally turned on your phone, I knew nothing would happen to you.
What did you say?
Tian Xin is with you?
- Tian Xin. - Tian Xin.
Tian Xin, don't be sad anymore.
You're a kind lady.
No matter what you decide, brother will support you.
But I will never forgive Zhang Hao Tian,
weak and cowardly, how could he deal with his feelings like that?
Wandering between you two sisters, to make you two so sad and upset.
I will definitely have him pay.
It was all my imagination.
I thought Sister was dead,
that I could replace her position in Hao Tian's heart.
I was hurting myself, others can't be blamed.
Men must do things decisively.
They also must be responsible for the things they said and did,
they must not hurt others and then use unintentional as an excuse,
pushing away their own responsibilities.
You were wrong, wrong in that you fell in love with a man who doesn't love you.
Tian Xin, don't worry. Leave this to brother,
I will definitely let you be wronged anymore.
Yao Hui?
Tian Xin.
Do you know you've made every one of us very worried?
Brother!
Hao Tian! Hao Tian!
Zhang Hao Tian, this is a lesson for you and also a lesson to teach you how to be a man!
Brother, I've already said, you can't blame Hao Tian!
It's fine, Tian Xin.
Tian Xin, Yao Hui is right.
He should hit me, I deserve it.
- Brother! - You knew you are wrong?
How indecisive you are, not admitting your love for those you love and not denying your love for those you don't,
making those two women be hurt and upset for you. What kind of man are you?
Yao Hui, compared to Qiu Yan and Tian Xin's love, my love is really worth nothing.
But if this happened to you, what would you have done?
The person you love sacrificed her love to fulfil your love with another woman.
The woman who loves you, for you and for everyone to be happy,
she rejected you at the wedding.
I also want...I also want to decisively end it all!
But what shuld I do?
Must I make a decision between them?
If I do that, it's harming to either of them.
What should I do?!
You kept saying I'm not manly enough,
do I have to choose one between them,
before I'm seen as manly?
Yao Hui, you love your little sister,
I love Qiu Yan a lot.
Tian Xin has done a lot for me, I don't want either of them to be hurt.
I've even thought about it, that the person who got cancer was me.
To help Qiu Yan with her burden.
I also hope the person being hurt,
the person being chased by Lu Feng was me.
That way, I could lessen Tian Xin's pain.
Hao Tian, don't say any more.
I know about your pain.
Zhang Hao Tian, then let me ask you,
what are you prepared to do now? Do you choose Tian Xin or Qiu Yan?
You must give me a reply today.
Before Tian Xin said Qiu Yan was still alive,
I was planning to marry her and take care of her for the rest of her life.
But Tian Xin's words at the wedding woken me up.
I think that whether after twenty years
or thirty years, I still shouldn't regret,
I should do anything sorry to my feelings,
I shouldn't do anything that would make me regret.
I love Qiu Yan.
I want to live my remaining days with her,
no matter how many days she has left, I still hope that
I would be the one walking with her.
I don't want there to be any regrets in my life.
I don't want to miss the girl whom I love the most in my life.
Boss!
Boss, it's great to see you. Are you alright?
- Tian Xin! Where did you go? - I'm fine, don't worry.
Auntie was worried to death.
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- Qiu Yan... - You don't need to say anything, I know what you want to say.
It's impossible for me to be with you.
Sister, do you still not know about Hao Tian's feelings for you?
Qiu Yan, why are you still hiding your feelings to this moment?
You obviously love me.
Why do you have to push me towards other people?
Zhang Hao Tian, listen to me clearly. I did love you once,
but the love I had for you has already become history.
I ask that you won't lie to yourself like this anymore.
Accept the truth and don't think wishfully,
and don't use my love for you from the past to hurt others.
I don't believe it.
I don't believe these are words said by you!
♫Once cried and once hated ♫
♫ Shrinking in the cold wind♫
♫Once cried and once hated ♫
♫Oh, the tears are swallowed by the rain drops♫
♫ I really don't want you to cry. ♫
♫We've had too many misunderstandings. ♫
♫I watch your face. ♫
♫It's stubborn yet beautifully heartbreaking.♫
♫ I can't face it. ♫
♫So I act like it doesn't matter. ♫
♫But that has made you cry. ♫
♫There is no chance for me to explain ♫
♫The troubles in my heart, ♫
♫and the self-deprecating blame.♫
♫Love will make people break each other's hearts. ♫
♫Why is it that only after breaking up, ♫
♫ do I feel the pain in my heart? ♫
♫These tears endlessly wet your face. ♫
♫ I force myself to say goodbye. ♫
♫ But when the words are on the tip of my tongue, it makes you cry, ♫
♫like your heart has been slowly ripped apart.♫
♫ Why is it that only after leaving you, ♫
♫do I want to return to the past? ♫
♫But love is already too far away from me. ♫
♫I'll just accept all of this. ♫
♫I force myself to say goodbye,but it makes you cry once again,♫
♫like your heart has been slowly ripped apart. ♫
♫I am in debt to you. ♫